Recovery

Night sky lucid

Venus rising first

Bold and decadent

She glows with the

Reflection of the sun

The Moon

Still a crescent

Is daring to get bigger

But now is still a slice

Of its fullness

I sit on my porch

And contemplate

I am dreaming

Of sanity, of peace

Quietude abounds

Yesterday I found myself

Sitting alone

Listening to the birds

Undefined by my ego

I find solitude and privacy

In the openness

I am recovery

I exist in every moment

And that moment alone

Every day is a gift

And an opportunity

To find this stillness

Privileged, my whole life

Even as a daycare worker

Slumming it in my twenties

I always had privilege

I was given this gift

Still I earned my fortitude

In adversity, in struggle

And now I know

I only wish to be

Whole and sane

So day by day I trudge

The happy road of destiny

Inch by inch

Moment by moment

I find happiness

And I surrender achievement

What I do is enough

My life is so simple

And I am okay with that

I am living gratitude

For my home

For my relationship

For our sobriety and health

For my family

For all my abundance

Somehow this is enough

I do not strive for

Accomplishment anymore

I am enough

Good enough

I continue to sit in stillness

And process the grief

Inside my body

To practice awareness and acceptance

At my very core

Recovery is all I need

God is all I need

And sometimes

The lack of god

Intellect and atheism are sobering

Thank you for this abundance

Thank you for the stillness

And companionship, the love

I am held on this path

In the loving glow of the moon