In the Beginning

Life has been full of subtle surprises. There are moments when I know that I am making progress, and there are moments when I feel a great sadness because I fear that I have moved backwards and am returning to square one. The truth is that square one is really all we ever have and it is a very good place to be. If I am never a beginner, how am I ever going to begin? The truth is that we begin every day new and with a fresh perspective (hopefully), and that we can start over every time that that bold giant burning hot sphere breaks the surface of this very large land that we call Earth. There are endless possibilities and there are endless opportunities when we begin. If we didn’t start over every single day, if we weren’t born new by the love that is God, how could we bear to live with ourselves? This leads to the fact that we are also showered in forgiveness by the Universe and God. The sad part of this is that I must do my part to forgive myself as well. But who am I but a miniscule spec on the surface of our great world? In truth I am made of star dust and God lives within me. If God is brave enough to forgive me and help me to begin every day new, who am I to disagree?

I want to be an expert. I want to know everything and be a wise, wise soul. What I am learning these days is that the wisest among us act as if they were born yesterday; my dog Bruce, my kitties, me year old niece. These are the spirits I look to for inspiration. None of these inspiritors even know how to speak the English language. I have to forgive myself for having to start over. I need to move through my sadness and begin new. There is a wisdom that is coming with my spiritual rebirth. I am learning to savor this and be grateful for this. It is time to move on and begin. I must begin every day. It is in the beginning that our eyes are open, pure. It is in the beginning that we know God.