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Not Sweeping My Fat under the Rug

Yes, I am going to write about body size issues. I am so sick of it. I am sick of it within myself, in our culture and among almost every woman that I know including myself. I have been struggling with the psychological addiction of body size, an anorexic/bulimic survivor since I was a young teenager. Unfortunately, this stays with you for life. I strive daily to not be a dry addict, much like a dry alcoholic. Maintaining recovery from such a disease requires constant work on one’s self. Sorry to break it to you all, but you can’t just stop puking, starving yourself or manically exercising to say you are done with an eating disorder. And to top off the bad news, I can think of several people in my life that have some level of socially accepted eating disorder and refuse to even acknowledge that they have a problem. So no, I am not done with it, I may be sick of it but one cannot just make a problem disappear that runs so extremely rampant in our culture, society and attacks us from every corner and in the most unlikely places. Yes, America has an obesity problem, but I seem to encounter many obese people that are much healthier in mind and spirit, perhaps even their body in some cases, than the overly obsessed skinny person. Do we care about our minds, our mental health? My favorite (not so favorite when you realize the truth of what you are saying) thing to think about is what we women could accomplish if we let go of the obsessive manipulation, hate mongering, and identity crises of our own bodies. No, I am sorry, strange person that I have never met, but your size seven ass does not make you a better person, and it is painfully obvious that your self-worth is completely wrapped up in your flaunting of your socially accepted body. I am not saying that a thin person has issues, or that a thin person with issues does not deserve the utmost compassion for their strife with their identity, self-perception, self-flagellation or obsession. But I am tired of this issue being swept under the rug. Let’s bring this issue to the table. Let’s talk about it and GET REAL. Wanting to be thinner is not being real, and please don’t make it your number one priority in your life. Healthy good… but mental health is just as important. Love yourself. God loves you… and if you can’t love yourself just the way you are, changing your body is going to get you nowhere.