Freedom

Love, acceptance, is coursing through my veins. I can smell the hope seeping from my pores as I feel it changing my body and my cells. I find that I am not worried about the future. Some people in my life have greatly affected me in this domain. They have showed me on some level how to strengthen my faith and have faith, be grateful, and develop an attitude about life that keeps me in this zone of happiness. Worry and frustration, anxiety and anger change nothing for the better. They also lead to isolation, cruelty, false discernment and judgmental thinking. Personally, I can do without any of that. If I let go of these things and simply trust, letting go of the fear of being taken advantage of, the fear that I do not have enough, the fear of being a failure and of not being loved, I find myself left with the moment. All of a sudden my sensitive body opens its awareness to the truth that I am okay. That nothing major is going wrong, that with my good intentions and positive persistence, I have done nothing wrong. I even find love and acceptance for folks who need help and are causing trouble in the world. I have found that the true trouble is in my mind and my attitude. In every moment, around every corner there is a doorway to peace. It is our minds, our lack of faith, and our negative thoughts that keep us from seeing these doorways. I want to grasp peace. I want to understand, feel and experience peace at my deepest core level. I want to have access to it whenever I call on my angels, and I want to be able to share this peace with others. There are moments in life where one must walk away from another individual because they only wish to cause you harm. I believe there is always room for us to grow in understanding, to try to act even more like the mature adult that we aspire to be. It is frustrating when others choose not to work with you, but one must make peace with even that.

Standing, on the crest of a large rocky outcropping, I look out to observe endless water, illuminated by the sun, and stretching onward and onward for what seems like infinity. I know that what I can see that seems so vast is just a pixel on the surface of the globe. Realizing this I feel the vastness of our world, so many people, trees, boats, cars, buildings, forests, and fields; so much water. And I just a person. Just me. I am small yet I can understand. I can feel and tap into the peace of this world I live in. I can contribute to and effect the world on a level that we don't talk about but exists in each one of us. I must calm and heal myself to be free. I crave to sit still with and be a part of this amazing world. The world just a speck in the universe that expands and expands. Inside me exists the same vastness of space. There is room for all of my feelings to exist and heal. There is room to travel and worlds to explore. I don't wish to make sense of it, write it down or catalog it in a graph, but I wish to know it well; to know it and merge with its never-ending serenity.