Life and Death

A line can extend

Marking the beginning and the end

Of my life

A timeline decorated

With events

Both beautiful and joyful

As well as dark suffering

But my life is not a line

Nor is time

It is round and organic

This moment fluid

And multidimensional

My memories from the past

Carried forward to

This moment of reflection

My future hopes and dreams

Ascending down to the now

Time is full and lush

This present is my life

I wonder at death

What is beyond the door?

What came before my birth

And what will come after death?

Will I find my loving partner again

In a future life?

Is reincarnation real?

Did my soul exist in a life before this one?

It is complex to ponder

These questions

I find solace though

In believing and trusting in

This one life

I cannot prove anything else

I cannot prove even

The existence of God

Though believing in a God

Helps me immeasurably

God is useful

God lets me relax into the now

I find solace in humility

I have a place to release suffering

A place to surrender resentment and hate

I can know I am loved

In complete aloneness

In simplicity

I can know that if I am unimportant

In the vastness of time and circumstance

That I alone also matter

And I can still be loved

By a higher power of my choosing

This love is real

Even if God is unprovable

This love extends beyond my body

And understanding

There is more to life than just me

Belief is grounding and hopeful

It allows and nourishes

A grand perspective

Life and death go hand in hand

One cannot exist without the other

In pondering death

In watching my animal children pass

I have come to believe

In a great release

That in ascending to the light

We are promised joy and healing

We become new

Our innocence refreshed

We are but a certain size

Of purity at birth

When we finally pass on

To whatever is next

We become this size again

Just as I cannot prove the

Existence of God

I also cannot prove

An existence beyond death

So I find solace in this one life

I begin to perceive all that my life is

Struggle and darkness

And imperfection included

As complete and whole

I become reasonable and responsible

Also this life now in this moment

Is okay

Okay is enough

Okay is all there is

In this moment and any future

I am blessed just to be

I have faith and belief

I choose this for myself

We all have this choice

We can self create our reality

And we can structure our belief

In any way that serves us

Some choose to believe in a God

And others do not

This is all okay

You are okay

And whatever path or reality

You choose to exist in

Choice is empowering

Choice allows me freedom

In this freedom I create a reality

That serves me best

I have so much gratitude

For all of the realizations

That have provided perspective

And healing in my life

Choice, Faith, God

These are awakenings that I have

Been blessed to achieve and that

Aide me in this moment now

In life and recovery

In life and death

On the only path

That I have ever known