What is the true killer of us humans on this beautiful planet we call home? I think it is a combination of two things. Shame, and the lack of love. True love that connects us to our hearts buried deep within our chests that are strangled by so many illusionary webs. These webs are gathered over many years of living alone within our hearts, and by being ruled by toxic shame. So may of the things we do in life to survive, that get us through are motivated by this shame. And unfortunately, the more we participate in shame, the more it eats us alive, and we forget how to feel love.

I believe sometimes it takes thinking outside of the box to feel and spread and share this love to others. It may look like writing a letter to your long lost brother, it may look like calling and nurturing your Aunt around the time of her back surgery. It may look like giving and receiving a hug from the neighbor child. Fostering a relationship to the divine may also aide in untangling and clearing these shadowy webs that shroud our hearts. But once we are open, once we are feeling again, once we are reminded on a deep core level that we are not truly alone, what then? It can be painful, ugly, and even feel unwelcome at times. What if we end up falling in love with someone we shouldn’t or we fear we will cheat on our wife or husband, even if it is in the form of an ethereal fantasy? I believe that this is when we remind ourselves that there is blind love that works like blind faith and appears as blinding light, as well as works as such on our inner beings. I have learned that if I keep my focus on faith, if I sit quietly with all of these uncomfortable feelings, that I soon am able to appreciate much more the magic that is attempting to transpire. Love is magic; it most definitely is, if it can soothe and clear the dark webs of our innermost shame.

I have been on a journey for a couple of months and I am not totally sure why, but I believe God is sending me visions and placing me in the path of learning as I take these journeys into my heart and untangle and soothe my shame. I believe I am growing, and though what I see and feel does not always make sense, the most important lesson prevails. Let the love in. If it is a voice or an angel that you cannot quite make sense of, let it in anyway. If you feel it as love, then it is. Believe in it. Dissolve the toxic shame that rules your life. Allow for these unexpected journeys into the divine and into love.