All the little things in life add up; especially my walk with God which is definitely made up of the little things. Pleasures and tasks, moments, they all can hold the special element of spirit. My walk this morning with the dogs, my bath, my coffee, time at the beach, they all contain the beauty of the miraculous. I am finding myself today wanting to stay in the present. I don’t know where I will be led moment to moment and that is okay. This is more than okay. I can trust that whatever happens I will be blessed. I feel blessed assuredly, and I forgive myself less and less for not slaving away, because I know that what God wants for me is to just sit with him in this joyous present. I do not need to forgive myself. This moment is a gift, and I am a gift. If I do not take the time to appreciate this moment, in all of its substance and lack thereof, what good am I to God? What good am I to myself? To manifest and understand the greater truth of God’s love, I must slow down; take in the moment and his love. Unfortunately my simple mind is not capable of achieving this without the divine help of God, and when I sit and listen and believe, I am that much closer to heaven in this world that is filled with so much suffering.

I left my job over two months ago. These last couple of months I have been spending a lot of time coming back to the present, healing and recuperating from a psychotic break. It has been a long haul and there have been both good days and bad. As my time has become more open, I am learning to a more certain degree that it is so important to stay in the present with God at every moment. I can force myself to do chores, but instead of procrastinating and filling my mind with disdain and “shoulds”, I find myself directed in another positive direction. I don’t just forgive myself for not taking the time in this couple of hours at present to slave away, I move into a place of total acceptance and love for myself. I find that this keeps my spirit up, and leads to the discovery of other important and healthy things that I can do for myself. It is simple redirection, or following the flow of God’s plans. I always do get to my tasks eventually, and I may even spend some moments in prayer. Before, I rarely took the time to pray. This time may simply look like me sitting in my back yard appreciating the lusciousness of my growing grass that could be seen as a bit too long. I rather see the grass as a beautiful blessing and a lush place to rest my bare feet as I look up at the trees, soaking in the sunshine and let God’s love just soak into my pores. I do think that this is pleasing to the greater being without and within me that I call God. I believe in this essence because it brings me great peace. I am learning to follow the day and the stream of consciousness of God. This gentle path is the healing that I have longed for many years to discover. Once you learn to let God soak into every moment of your day and take the time for praise and prayer, you will never go back. I am accomplishing great things with very little effort. Following the flow of the Lord, the river of God, is what we are meant to do. Our minds, our independence just leads us in the wrong direction. It feels so good to be dependent on love.