Wonders are everywhere. The wind is blowing and a conversation with a good friend while pumping my legs to the rhythm of the day in the sun, I begin to unfold; I sigh and unravel. I love this Island. The space and the slowness seep into your bones and soon you begin to wonder what all the bother is about. I feel myself shedding patterns and habits that have been with me for years.

I ask myself, what am I trying to accomplish, where is it I wish to go? Is it further inside of myself on this long winded journey, further out into the lives of my loved ones, friends, and gentle community, or a sweet and alluring combination of both? I don’t wish to conceal secrets, but I wish to reveal them to myself. I want to explore them in a way that I am forced or willing to wrap my brain around, and exercise it in a way where I am able to break through to a space in the world that is new, cleansed and fresh.

I wish to spend more time alone and happy, being creative and thoughtful, as well as quality time with my dogs and lover in a way that is intentional and I continue to foster and water the goodness in our lives. I wish to nurture myself through paying close attention to others, and to be conscious of my actions. I crave to let myself sit in stillness long enough to make a discovery, or understand a feeling I have been living with for some time. I love myself, but I want to even more, I want to cherish myself.

To do this I need to stop running and escaping in a way that I am asking for someone to give me something that really I can only provide for me. Let the nature of life run with the wind of my day to day. Let the river inside me flow to the rhythm of joy and new beginnings. I will start new every day even if I continue to explore and notice the old. I will contemplate what I have always wished to about myself. It may sound regular or dull on paper, but it is truly fascinating, and the science of it is miraculous.